So I have acute bronchitis, fun times....

not much to say today, i'm slowly loosing my mind, my grasp on reality.

We'll see what happens, i'm getting help!

thanks for listening.

The ebola monkey of doom

Well having recovered from some strange stomach ailment a week or so ago, that took the life out of me, I have now developed what appears to be the common cold except for the massive amount of green phlegm that come out every time I cough (my lungs out) in the mornings.

I went to the doctor this morning and she put me on a nebulizer to clear out my lungs a little and prescribed me an inhaler (apparently with steroids for my lungs)

Called my parents, both were so pissed off that the doctor did not give me any antibiotics, we come from a country that if your foot hurts they shoot you up :)

We'll see what happens, my throat is killing me, my head hurts and I have hit delete too many times to mention to correct spelling errors.

Going to inhale now...

New week new attitude

Well hey now its monday :D look at me smiling and whatnot!

Sooo yesterday was Valentines day, Tim and I went to the mall and had Dinner and saw "wolfman" with Benicio DelToro not bad for a sunday.

I had to work Sat and Sun, but Tim came with me which was awesome

I probably mentioned this already, but I joined OA and I had my first meeting on friday. I was a little scared at first, especially since when I walked in this girl asked me "are you here for OA or Lamaze?" hmmmm second time someone thinks i may be prego.

I amazingly was somehow able to shrug it off and listened to everyone at the meeting without so much as a peep.

At the end of the meeting I met Ronni, a woman who was able to become a sponsor, she wasn't super excited about it.

I called her this morning and we set a time to talk in the evening, I called her tonight and things went awesome, we share common interests and well problems :) I think this is going to be very good for me.

Have a goodnight world see you soon.

After the storm

Well its a new day today, yesterday was my 28th birthday, it was a very good day.

I had a lot of weight issues, I felt fat and ugly around my family and uncomfortable with my dad who loves to take sooo many freaking pictures. But i'm dealing with it, one thing at a time.

Tried to go to curves today with Sarah, they were closed! bummer! I went home and cleaned the house, I sweeped and mopped and cleaned the bathroom and cooked lunch and I feel like I have at least accomplished something for today.

The baby I babysit is coming over today, so that should be awesome, he takes me out of myself, and I focus on him and his needs.

I received the paperwork for the hospice I will be volunteering at, and I'm looking forward to the training and getting out there!

Valentines day is right around the corner! I'm excited!

Today was a good day

It is the end of day two and I have no complaints :D

Went to Curves with my sister in law Sarah in the morning and Then went to visit my old boss in Guttenberg, She owns a doggy daycare! It was great.

I'm also volunteering at a Hospice which I have to complete some tests for first.

Went to the doctor and had a good experience, even though they weighed me which sucked.

Then I went and got my hair done because tomorrow is my birthday, yes I will be 28 years old tomorrow :) and from what I hear there will be a massive blizzard, ughh

But ok, i'm dealing with it, dealing with the fact that today was good and tomorrow will be even better as I take baby steps towards recovery.

Day two of Life, day one of blogging

I'm going to try to keep it light on here :D I'm going to try and be a more positive person, who thinks happy dappy thoughts, mostly about myself :)

So today is day two of the diet...

A little back story, I was 300 lbs at the age of 18 and by 20 I had lost 140lbs

I am admitting for the first time to the world, no matter who is reading this that at that point at the age of 19 in the midst of my weight loss I developed an eating disorder that I have fought for 8 years.

Last year I entered recover in April, it was one of the hardest years of my life! We all almost lost a Marcela last year.

SO its a brand new year, and a brand new outlook on life.

I have gained 40lbs in recovery, but would not take it back because it was worth every pound to be a better person in the end!

Today is day two of the diet plan to turn things around, I have also joined Curves and its day two for that as well.

I look forward to sharing my thoughts and emotions and life experiences on this blog, I miss blogging and I'm happy to be back!

Much love to everyone no matter what your struggle is!